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February 17, 2022error#Rolled in heap, with his brain-spattered arms,
The limbs fell dying; in equal halves the head
This way and that from either shoulder hung
Wild panic seizedhow you see the world is more important than
what you look like.be able to intrepret but not develop or produce, no orginal ideas only the rearangement of previous axioms and (open source) discoveriesi kinda woke up with
my brain feeling as if
it were covered in bloodmy mind was last thing i had left
and they took it away from meit doesn’t have to
be right awayi told him to look up
van gogh but he never herd of him
but said he had just gotten into
bob ross
they gave him a wheel chair
but when i had frost bite
they took my wheel chair away
and said it was a non wheel
chair floor and i had to
crawl on the floor to make
phone call to beg to not be
forced medshe said he
used to eat alot of
acid
and tried to kill himself
and almost lost his wife becase
of it and went to same mental
hospital i did
but he is on medsanarchism is in contrast to the state
in any unnatural collective situation
due to utilitarian effort autonomy is initial
maintaining a sense of autonomy
is essential for a collective of individuals to deal with basic necessities and inevitable clockwork of chores. the collective prespective disinfranchises laziness and lack of dedication required to climb the base elitism so there is social anxiety even in acts of civil disobedience or direct action or communism.
the responsibility of community in relevance to goals irrelevant to the individual (there is difference between economic scarcity and scarcity of the individual at the cost of productivity, the cost of industry) in a community each individual has responsibility
only unto themselves nobody can really
tell anybody anything they can only ask or guess. by weight of social anxiety > (social) responsibility its only logical to enact base utilitarian effort to either strive for autonomy and to run away from the community. once an individual understands themselves and their own capabilities they would only ever utilize automic practices to free them selves from community to free them selves of the idiots who are not anarchist only to weild whips unto them selves for the sake of snake oil for the sake of my downfall for the sake of community. i don’t see myself as joining the american community.
by volition, instead of consumerism the
community is the consumer of the individual at the cost of the community. communism attempts to glorify one class over another in contrast to previous class tensions. because communists don’t have class (in general) they attempt to deligitimize the ideal class inorder to render it extortable
where there is greater potential for extortion communists target that area for extortion. even if they don’t understand basic math. or religious toleration. the state deligitimizes its self for cultivating class, classism, and further deligitmizes state recognition by dealing with methods of action that requires the subjective concept of class at the entire cost of society.
there are certain rights i don’t want;
conservatorship is manager of finnicial
affiars
so this would never effect me because i’m
an anarchist. i literally don’t believe
in money and wanted seperation from that
right
in an individual has more power and control
over me than the state, or a psychologist
that is life destroying.
mutal aid is volentery
for me anarchist is personal
choise as individual anarchist
mutalaid to a certain extent
is acceptable since it’s volentery
social contract or the state is not necsairy
borders do not keep us free. they are socialconstructs
so they don’t exist even by preception. preception
or the delusion of the state is only one of the negative
sideefects of it, that objectiveily exist. but preceptions
of the state are on the peripheris of the objectivity
of the state and are only subjective preceptions if the
interpretation or motive is not correct.
its the border between us and the state
even if it’s an abuser that protects me
i view it as guardian
to prevent me from being forced meds
my psychologist who has been mistreating
me since 2013. got his degree in Iraq
and is arabic and intense and forces
meds even if it causes damage or if there
is no justification not just to me but everyone
pragmatically.
my only way to escape the meds is to
have guardian Deny consent on my behath
since schizophrenics are treated like dogs.
being forced meds against will
or draconian abortion laws
or gatekeeping is not anarchist policy.
people wait in line for bus naturally
there is general rule but its not legistlated
by the state to stand specifically in a line
even if the line is not perfect
people think nothing of it
thats why i think its good to be own doctor
when possible
although some people will poison themselves
if they do that
crypto currancy is arbitrary to the state
and since its volentery and requires
organization
(without stateism) or hyarchy cocersion
it is mutal-aid as it is volentary
NFTs are new and everything new has been feared
even if its printed books.
people thought printed books would cause
issues
same with incadecent lights
vaccines are new and feared but not really
for that reason
phones and social media and hiphop and rockand roll
all when new were feared
even america when new was feared
today there is more fear
anarchism is a humanism
a natural effort
it is moral because it does not harm
nor does it draw imaginary lines between
the human and nature
if one person commits a crime against another
than that is an act of hyarchy
no anarchist can commit crime of violence
or theft becuase that is a crime of hyarchy
vastmajority of criminals bypass anarchy by
their crimes and from what i have seen most
people who are not real anarchists are real criminals
one way or another.
to not be anarchist in general is usually a result
of being hypocritical and myopic (no offense)
Van Gogh painted a picture of two shoes both
of the same foot so a criticizier proclaimed
that he was lacking dicipline within his own art
to not beable to make a left footed shoe next to a right
footed shoe but it is only from coming from a position
of class that they were able to experience the privelege
of having two shoes for the correct foot
back then it was common for those persecuted
from industrialization to have shoes for neither foot
or two for the same foot otherwise they couldn’t get the size
or couln’t afford
or the shoe was in a way that is less tight so
they could get their foot in their
but in reality
you don’t have to be pragmatic about certain things
as a hypothetical excuse.
the state considers it’s self and it’s allies
and non allies as being able to have weapons
and conduct violence
on behalth of the manufactereres
imperialism has no justification but its not anarchy
and when individuals behave similuary and
are bullietheives this is not anrchism
they say anarchy is chaos
but war is chaos.
anarchy would prevent war not just allow people to
have better personalities and socialskills
anarchy aposes unjust hyarchy
and then
does not act on hyarchy
situations like petty fist fights can be excluded
from the arguments against anarchy
because i don’t tell anyone what to do
i just let people fight and mind my own business
or if i get robed i don’t call the police
becuase when i was 17 police droped me off in
the middle of no were and threated to shoot me
instead of helping me as a homeless robbing victim
police are useless for me so far in my life when
i needed them. the state has tortured me
with meds
against my will.
forced medication or treatment against will is definition
of medical fruad. it was united states state system and
court used to take away rights with no authentic right
to due process.
for me i’m a witch being burnt alive
i walk on water but have coldfeet
i can never wear shoes again
becuase of phsyical and verbable abuse mixed
with abelism
mixed with fear of meds to inspire runing
i’m in so much pain i dream of finding
a way to sorta leave this world
but its impossible due to art emphasise
i’m nihlist without pain management
the state has potintial utility
so does revolution
or the abolition of the state.
the state can be overcome worldwide
for the sake of a world government
in the future the state will be for culturally
presorvation, and based on upkeeping a map
to learn about the past instead of the whole
borders keep us free when their will be universal
denucleration and demilitarism to the point
that there will only be military police
in the uk i made friends who similar to me had
suffered abuse, were forced anti psychotics
and had negative experince with it
the same ratios of mental health are in the usa
and uk
and same system of forcing meds
they have better hospitals in some countries
but if you misbehave you can be forced meds
people lie
from my point of view
change is bad because it takes away from
peace (anarchy)
anarchism causes happiness. so there is support for it
in utilitarianism
its difficult for me to get anything out of locke
because it is tainted with mud
shakespear was a bad writer and messed upthte
english people in 1600s
i don’t think i could
live in a situation without anarchy
or talk to people without being an anarchist
if i were in a relationship with someone
like friend i do not believe that i have right to tell
them what to do
for some people definition of property that
is compatible with anarchism is anything
that has sentimental value.
because this is a humanistic inevitbility
that is relevant.
the way property is defined by the state
arbitrary to social contract
is maybe an afront to the indigenious people
that precede empire. since their consent
muchless definition overrides
my idea for revolution is to shatter america
and canda and mexico
inorder to create an indigenious antinationalist
movement, with greensocialism as a contained concept
or to be effortless
and then to disregard left right politics
as fraud
to make room for the other revolution
but i don’t think it would work becuase
i can’t network worth a @#$!
i’m not offended by anarchist capitalism
if they are uses it to enjoy a comic book
but then there is the history of southamerica
people come up with excuses to not be anarchists
and it is due to a confusion
lack of incite
anarchism as a social theary
not a law
since it’s arbitrary to law as laws are not
necesaisairly philosophical since they
fictions with various intent based on groupthink
mechanisms.
bakunin was not against people who are both savants
but not anarchitsts or not utilizes aspects of
the existing states and civilizations and scientific
orgnaizations to do studies but he did not think
studies should be done without consent and bases ethics
of his philosophy can beextended to reject animal
testing or cruelty
for example psychologists should beable to
have meds but not force them on people and children
don’t have consent nor data to back up any justification
since they are in development
and then it is health risk to elderly who are taken advantage of
and then there are alot of things wrong with the american
mental health industry
i went to an anti psychriactic museum in hollywood
but aparently it is funded by religoius groups but
the information was basic i didn’t see anything that
wrong with it.
it just talked about the history
i get how there is stigma with meds
but then also there is not enough stigma so long
as kids are being affected by the progress of
adults who conformed to societie’s expectations
what is unfortunate is that the conspiry thearists
crowd are too often the only ones against being
forced antipsychotics, against ssris becuase they have
gone crazy from these synthetic drugs
it is difficult to be negatively effected by the meds
when the horrible parts of the right wing are
being loudmouths about the meds ruining it for everything
so we don’t get reform
some on the left or central left
would argue for more spending on mental health industry when it is the system of meds with shallow resources
by resources i mean the lameness of support groups
limited knowledge or a hospital that is just dehumanizing
and has issues
i know that mental hospitals in scandanavian countries
are by far alot better than in america.
i also have not looked into variations in laws for
conservatorship but don’t see how its not something
that is appropiate for some people for various reasons.
i used to be aquited with someone who was special
he was said the have mind not developed beyond 12 year old
so it would make sense for him to have guardians
or measures to make it so he didn’t just wander off willy
nilly and is allowed to only because of chronological age
i don’t know how to prove anything
there are phyiscal limitations that have
prevented it from being easy to prove.
and then as anarchist i have nothing to prove
for example if you go up to anarchist
and are sceptical of anarchism
its not like the anarchist has to prove it
to anyone
when there is not telling people what to do
is anarchy since before that
i would never tell anyone what to do
and if someone told me what to do
it would only depend on the stituation
socialism is merely a bandaid for capitalism
and this is inevitible.
from admansmith utilitarianism
was underliniing premise for capitalism
the purpose of capitalism is not it’s historical
pitfalls but is of utilitarianism
although this is a situation were criminals
have false justificaitons when in reality
if they were not criminals or more equality
based mathematics than it would be sound utilitarnism
the state lacks viable utility
what it attempts to preserve or help
it torments and each state has potintial for
engaging in unjust hyarchy
as result of self defense to defend one’s self
from another state
when no state has any right to defend it’s self
against a state by any means necessairy
only the individual can defend themselves
or lovedones from the state
at relative costs
the state can spend money that doesn’t exist
to exhibit power,
John Locke was an ant fucker.
(no offense)
an indigenous patriarchy in papa new guine
was anarchist
he said before christians came there was no
problem
and that you should never trust
any organization (nongovernmental organizations, public rights organiztaions’s ect.)
any government
any organized religion
there used to be a good zine for this but
i can’t find since 2009.
the unibomber said in his manifesto that
we should not give medical treatment to people with
diabetes
because it gets in the way of natural selection.
which is why insulin prices are so high.
my cousin is vet and relies on his mom for payments
of the insulin
if he was orphan and without help he could die
or still could.
i have little respect for american medical reality
it has causes suffereings to me
i herd in germany that they have surgies for
sports ahtenlets i think it could help my
corpoltunnel
nerve damage is not fair to me
i don’t want to meme or mess up this debate
or get kicked out.
i’m tormented by my thoughts
becuase they are like giant things
crashing down on me all the time.
and then there is pain.
so i feel like i’m sliping away
i’m in too much pain to tell otherpeople
what to do
or to be told what to do
there are suggestions for the issues
of the world
or ability to go against one’s self
in situations i am not anarchist as possibility
i am one still if you guys would read more.
or also if i still can’t be anarchist in a specific
situation or it is a situation that is not ideal
i would use multifacited utilitarianism
if not utilitarianism than agrarianism
to have justificaiton issues.
a social theary doesn’t mean if that if someone
goes against it that they are within that theary
when they commit crime that is universally accepted as wrong
it is only because they are not a true anrchist that
they are even a criminal in the first place
and fascism is were criminals are in power.
our preception of the state is arbitrary to the extention
of the state beyond public measure due to lack of transparnecy
anarchism is compatable with freedom of information act.
though it is in shambles.
and under utilized.
the state is against utilitarianism
unless it can make me happy
or the greasted amount of people happy on tearms
that are biologically sound inrespect to health
and wellbeing.
forexample somepeople would be happy to be not anarchist
and commit violent crime
they are excluded from utilitarianism because their
happiness is in conflict with biological utilitarinism
(i am secretely a biological based utilitarian, becuae i included the happiness of imaginary ego of individualcells of human body and then invidiual cells of all other life forms included single cell life forms
despite my hypothosis virsuses are not consisered
alive
becuase they require host torerpoduce
so men are like viruses and lack category
of life and many carry them selves that way
for example my dad is a virus in shoes
viruses are 2nd dimensional life forms
and are life just not completely in the 3rd dimenion
humans are 4th dimensional evolving into 5th dimensional
beings
anarchism is compatible to the objective argument.
not becuase its a humanism or sound social theary
that is practicle in application more so often
than that of our phones.
do we all utilize essential aspects of anarchism without
knowing it
communities are avoidable by hermatism
individuals are avoidable by choice
(unless you are disabled)
anarchism is avoided only when we
lie to our selves about the moral reality
of our decisions and intentions
and actions.
and anarchism is avoided when
we dehumanize our standards to say an hour
of our life is worth a certain amount.
the highest paid worker verses lowest in world
paid
life is not worth anyamount of
dough.
anarchism is just as logical as being
gluten free since everyone is gluten free
especially if they don’t yet realise it.
i don’t in my life see my self has having
the ability to actually think i have
a right to tell other poeple what to do
(authority) i would as anarchist
refuse by volition to not go forth
as an authoritarian
authoritarianism is just one form of hyarchy
there is also fascism and the orgnaizations
of the world.
that are not to be trusted.
there is a point to humanity
so the state is obsolete in it’s integriy
it’s relevance doesn’t have validity
compared to art.
or what causes good art to be created.
the legal age to vote shoudl be lowered to 16
and the legal age to drive updated to 25
and legal age to become president to 19
and legal age to drink to 18
america doesn’t have small cars that affordable
with good gasmiliage
other countries do as if it were
normal
people criticize that the gas prices are higher but
they spend alot less on gas
and its not that much higher
and then the taxes are high not because of
school or helthcare but because of
overspending on military
and from pressure
alot of the corruption of the left
in brasil comes from foreign corporeate
fascists pressure
most likely a result of string pullers
when the left is corrupt that is a way
to oppress the left.
anarchism is essential to civil disovbendance
direct action
good manners and manuvering society in a way
that resepcts both oneself and others
violent choas could never be a member of anarchy
as it goes agaist anarchism
to raise one’s hand against another
i can turn the cheek be burnt alive from witch
hunts piling on to eachother
over time
i can see how my life for myself would be better
in another country
but i would still be unhappy.
i don’t have control over my own
life and have to relinguish control
over that while atempting to not wallow
in the mud which is encouraged by
christians
the technology started getting people more isolated
and then the gunculture doesn’t help and then
utter stress of ecnomic stagnation for marginialized
groups of people.
poverty is linked to christian fascism
i don’t know about thrid world country
as term in the past before all the recent development
before phones
before internet and so on it was easier to devide
the worlds
now the wolrds are connected and in healing process
though global turmolie
is inevitble
vioence is linked to drugs.
most don’t realize this
drugs are linked to low selfestem
that is linked to poverty
each culture is dynamic
becuase each region of the world has their own
economic history and total history that creates
unique deterministic chain of effects so in any
case people will be divided betweem those
who’s lives are economically or objectivelly
or poltically or aesthetically or etheically
or in reality effected by the unique casuality
there are groups of people successful or not
who are divied between those who are effected
fully or at high ratio or those who had the ability
to break free and not be effected or steped off
a part of the chain of relity that lead to
this moment that you are reading this
and what thoughts are caused by the result
even if it seems minor irrelevant variation
it contributes to atveryleast small variation in timing
so every thoght that you were going to have
otherwise if you were not going to read this
runs risk of either not ever exiting, or existing
in an othertime a time that is closer to now
or further than you other would of had that specific
thought that you have not had that is X
i don’t see how people could be in relationship
unless they were anarchists becuase otherwise
they would tell what to do
same for business.
if you are a painter
you merely tell the paint what to do
everything else is for the birds
when i’m a nihilist painter
i’ve seen people who have spent their entire
lives
in aemrcia as well as people alittlebith
older than me and want toescape for many
reasons i should stop talking about it
i get the concept of staying to make your
own place better, but its the concept that there
is a possibility to own a place (property is theft)
because property doesn’t have sentimental value unless
it does
i honestly think that under my rule
i would make it so that only homeless people are
able to have a say in foreign policy.
multiple times throughout history that is what it
had came down to
in ancient greece
i don’t get why they don’t bring back the idea
nor sure if its true or not.
you can prove that cyclopses existsed as a rare
breed mutation race of people in isolated extreme
parts of the world
when incest was unavoidable
blue gods existed in all civiliations that
ate gold and silver
to be created on purpose
or celebrated.
hegal offers mthyology
not a sound basis for socialtheaory
much less economic system
regardless of the ability to easliy
detach communism from it’s origins
the music industry can prove that polytheism
is still relevant
i disagree with most of what is said about
hollywood
because of skidrow
even though that is bad
it is a pursecution from not understanding base
fundementals of art
when it was a criticle human achievment
the thearture scene in some parts of the world
would of been interesting in the past
or all that people had for entertainment
before pokemon
i’m a basketcase but there are parralls and base
fundementals in art with theature
filmmaking is often not just creation of art
but is a political act becuase there is too many
people or its not anarchism
unless it is single handedly
i time travel in my dreams so i created my own
religion
its against my religion to do harm
so its against my religion to be not an anarchist
becuase telling other poeople what to do
causes harm
religion is just anything that people do
to make them selves feel beter
but there are differnt ones.
if i have objective naturalism
as a criticle foundation to my
social theary due to my religious background
than this is merely a cowinsadense.
i don’t see what is big deal…
anarchism is an extention of non negative
classical cynicism
and is relative by deterministic
connection.
you can have these isms has tools in a
box of a sociolologist and use the differnt
tools for different situations as it is
deemed practical and or necessiary.
or if some of these ideas have value or ability
to do things that are good
such as make happy
than i would only come up with an excuse to
not do something if there was a reason to.
otherwise
i would be anarchist.
i have seen other people who are anarchists
and it seemed like a good idea.
nuclear bombs are bad because its the tool
of a dictator to cause that much damage
at once and then the environemntal reprocussions
humans are advancing in certain ways
but the states of the world are strugling to
come up with an excuse for existence since most of
them have never had a legitimate excuse for being
brought into play. the state by preception is illusion
if there is no one true definite definition of the state
that doesn’t exclude state definity.
or state densicity
or state executions.
i’m against the death penalty as anrchist becuase i don’t
think any state should beable to decide life or death
becuase of what the state is. (objectively) the idea that the definition of the state varies based on the individual
is a lie of the state. it allows democracy
to make it so we can think we are not responsible
for the soceity we participate in
since society has unjust inplications
and one society is more just than the other
not just in relaity or in realtion of that
state to other states that are not that state
but also to myself as individual givin particular
circumstances
just as society is convienent for one person
that society may be be convientent nor tolerable for
anthoer
immagration is a natural and inevitable
process. and right.
as the future becomes more about money
immigration is haltered for those
who need it most. we have lack of healthcare
and the negative results of that are even
shoved off and blamed on immigration.
anti immigration people have always lied about anything
as anarchist i’m against illegal immigration as a concept
becuase you can’t make people illegal. when their
base humanity naturalises. them to the entire universe.
locke was imperialist
which means hes the father of
neoliberalism
not just neocolonialism. but i could be wrong.
what wikipedia says about liberalsim
is isolated
definition.
and is generalization instead of
concrete empistemology
it might be a mixture of fragments
there might be limitations on wikipeida
most of the scientifc data i need to
make parascoloigcal organ printing
4th dimensional and 5th and 6th dimsienisonal
technology
as brain organ lenses. has been ereased.
mugwort increses the exicitory neuortransmissionrate
of the 3rd sub serotonin receptor
which increses memory
in quantum physics it is impossible to remember the
future without being able to remember the past
and vice versa.
any time machine that can remember the past can
also remember the future.
its just math. they relize this and don’t understand
why they can’t prove it wrong and try to but can’t.
so they erased the information required to build timemachines
and take my ideas for the government.
i’m against musk, when cvoid started to get out of hand
in march 2020 he said the reaction to it was stupid
and put this telsa facorties functions over the threat
of virus or attempted to.
what people actually worship gold
my dad thinks rittenhouse should get awaywith it
because he wants to find a way to waste me
but can’t
i’m trying to play piano
and no one knows what that means
and other isntruments.
if someeone threatens to kill you and no one
cares and you have nightmares about it
freedom is important and all but the
dictatorship of someone who is good
is good doesn’t sound
like a bad alternative.
compared to either the state forcing me meds potintially
as a way to force me to participate in soceity
when i’m incapable in the first place. (due to premise)
or my parents poisoning me or shooting me
i like being a slave.
as for britney.
people need to take into account
she got a conservatorship
for pulling a gg-allin.
(the shaved head)
now i know what you are thinking…
you have to remember that britney
spears is prime suspect as international
symbol of not sensual music but instead
individualism, and americanianism at it’s core
the pespi camaign amunst the major record deal
makes me supcicious that she might be a sellout
but the emphasise at her freedom despite the
threat to soceity (gg allin did very similary things
and but gg allin was not under conservatorship
because of charisma.)
the emphasise on britney being free.
at the cost of national security.
it might not effect someone who is
in cananda
i have respect for communism for what i’s worth
i just don’t think its worth very much.
(to me as an individual)
or atleast in general.
the only good thing about communism
is that it upraises the inivididual
to the point that they benefit from communism
but also benefit so much that they
don’t really need communism
so its only the gullible people who
participate.
i see plenty of individuals creating
communties and extorting them with nfts
why are NFT’s popular? the rich or basically
anyone who has alot of cryptocurrancy
has dirty money so there is a need for money
laundering on large scales, gypsyjazz guitars
are a way, but now NFT’s same with fine art.
thats why the fine art world as criticized the
NFT’s for fixing an issue of exclusionism in the fineartworld
NFT’s are about adding historical value to history
since history was erased the internet and NFT’s are
important to the point that even the most cliche
effortless NFT that is random, is more important
than me. or critizing NFTs even if they are without
objective value. is just as bad as erase john locke’s
work due to him just not being… jazzy enough.
one of my main critizisms against locke is that he is
not jazzy enough and jazz is self expression so the
least he can do is be more egotistical
because without context, and premise he is
not egotistical enough to even begin to beable to back up
half or much less anything of what he says.
i don’t disagree with the intent or conclusion of
everyarguement i just don’t agree with that he
had a very good method of justifying anything he said
muchless concept of reality.
he was a denomination of calvanists that is somewhat
more liberlaish or differnt than any calvanists
but was imperail thinker so i’m not suprised of
the issues that he has i’m just suprised that
liberals are forced to be corrorlated with him due to
subjective means. empriacalism was a humanism
and liberalism is by gravity an individual aspect of
humanism
regarless of timeperiod or of locke.
i like the amish but they are christian.
so i am doomed to be alone.
i feel communism is good on a hippie commune but
it would getin the way of my talent
i disagree with nuclear power becuase each nuclear plant
is built next to a body of water.
and the prophets dont’ help the community nor individual
the wealth is not rationally distributed and it is a scam
against authentic green energery
or self efficeincy
just like conservatorshipsism is going against one’s
ability to have control over reality
or finacnes
private and state utility businesses are like this
and the state it’s self.
i don’t need control over my own life
because i have no life.
i don’t need control over my own
finnicial resources becuase i’m
not materialistic
i m anarchist i don’t beleive in
money i would burn it
the true wise person said that
we need to burn all the money
becuase if we have no money
than we have no greed
if we have no greed than we have
no hunger
if you have no hunger than it
is better to burn all the banks
and all the money
and crypto currancy has continued
this phenomon
claiming to end scarcity
there is a certain level of independence
but it is in vain.
because of property tax.
its a deal that only benefits the rich
and criminals.
i don’t judge people for using crptocurrancy
but with being an artist i’m dedicated to
life of poverty
because of design principles.
since its possible to create art
i would always invest in art until
below poverty line
regardless of art there are endangered species.
i don’t value independence because
its not a viable option for me
i’m afraid of the state and don’t want the
state to own me
before i was under conservatorship
i was forced meds against my will
since i was consiered schizophrenic
since 18. or when i was 20 i was forced meds
and then from being depressed from that
they makes me into slave behind my back
but i did not get any disability check at all
for several years
so i had zero money until for years
and then as soon as i get anything
i go to jail for no reason
and then my ear hurts
its illegal for me to goto canada.
i can’t objectify my life
its needed to have individual with
individual power to
replace the fact that i don’t have
control over my own body so that i do
in the first place or even have a chance
of sainity
to be not forced meds
maybe i’m off my meds is why i’m like this
i mean i am technically off my meds but
as long as i am with good behavoir
i’m medless
but still tortured from the meds before
from my point of view i commend people
who want to change society wheather they
are activist or governmentemployies
but from my point of view society isn’t something
that i can change or due to circumstances and difficulties
i feel no obligation to change society much less obligation
to community.
i mean i at heart feel obligated to the community
standards of this debate
i try to keep comic relief to a minimum or to
myself
but the exitential dread that exists inbetween
locke, britney spears and geopolitical realities.
not to mention the base reality or endless pain
of my own life
when i was younger it was easier to have control over my
own realities
and could travel without money
and be happy.
my communities were nomadic
i never found a communitiy that i fit into
that was set in ground due to elitism
and being talented enough to be purely homeless
as a nihlists becuase i would eat out of the trash.
communism or overconsumers from capitalism would produce
the trash that we ate. as individual anarchist.s
but both christians and communists were responsible
for the bum feeds. food not bombs gifted us nurtrition
but they were in part potintially sympathizers muchless
self proclaimed communists who were trying to give us food
and had stickers. but christians are without stickers
typically but with worse food that is like jail food
and then you are exposed to sermanism indictredly
just to get food poisnong from the christians like i did
in alanta but i’m not saying food not bombs are communists
but they are just as bad as communists or look like them.
christians are psychological fraud and communists
are economic fraud.
but we have what we have
for me its only the pain of suffering
from not being able to create
i slip away from pain
i try to find ways to be selfefcicient
but getting a passive form of income
is more difficult than it sounds.
if you are neuordivergented. or creativeprofessional
being a slave to an individual who is
moral is better than being
a slave to the state
or owned by it. when the state is guilty of humanrights
violations, and the wars. i m desperate
so i would put an individual dictator inbetween
me and the state
to protect me from being forced meds
to save my art.
if an individual is immmoral
you can potintially replace them
with a moral actor.
but instead we are much moreso
individualistic society.
i sometimes probablywant spouse
to take care of me
or wish but
i would be burden.
and then love is mutual
its difficult for me to have negative
opinion about marriage just because i became
disabled when i was 21 and could play music then
or i don’t corrorlate what christins do with
marriage. every dating service seems like
christian mingle to me.
however charles manson got married which is everything
anybody needs to know about marriage. or married people.
marriage would be touchy subject for me
becuase i’m in position where it is easy for me
to see it as ideal form of escape
but then there are basic difficulties
like were is the place i goto to get married?
i would have to travel the world pragmatically
and after visiting every town in every country
would marry the best one out of every country
put together
and if i couldn’t get married i wouldn’t
there is a whole industry based on this
i don’t see how marriage can be good if american
government is corrupt and then is the main
decision maker on the exitence of the marriage.
so i either find ways to be happy alone
or travel to country where marriage
is moral in the firstplace.
but i would get in over myhead. amarriage would
be too much for me. or i could barely do it
my idea about marriage is to avoid it
first and formost.
and then after smoke has cleared runaway
before its too late.
i’m much more so fatalist, or believe in
the stars or psychic connections
or soulmates. or would travel entire
world pragmatically, and then
marry the best one out off all the countries.
unless they were not anarchist. but than
marryining goes against anarchism and sometimes
utilitarianism. or its only from utilitarianism
that marriage would be okay. i don’t know
where is stateless marriage.
i don’t think marriage is normalized
as its nearly impossible in my case. i can see
why marriage was arrianged by parents in the
past because of people like me from how messed up
i am.
i don’t realy even understand what marriage
is as an instiution
why is state consent corrorlated with the validty
of marriage when there is no state validity
to the state prehandedly?
a state can say that one group of people can
get marriaged and another can get drone strike
droped on them while geting married.
either way i see no objectivity to state
recognition, maybe thats why you say
or almost say that the state is objectified by
our preception. when the majority are illerate
by choice and without tanigble preception.
which is difficult to achieve even if you never
stop studying the news and history. and scince
and everything. there is alot of difficult
or negative information, and you can see various
resources adapting to find healthy ways to
deal with reality.
i can see how
we are conditioned to institution of
marriage despite the consequnces
or disparities, i’m not against marriage
buecasue of utilitarian, but becuase
i find it to be humanistic if the state
medeling did not dehumanize the basis of it’s legitimacy
just by having that much power over something with
out actually existing except from random indiviudal’s preceptions
when in reality these although invisible to the human eye
when in an american court system you can feel the state’s
Hevy energy like a machinical machine the limitations of
the judge slowly turn cogs and gears that crush the souls
of mostly poor people. for pretty much no reason.
but then there is still issues that are
dynamic that i don’t want to talk about.
because its endless
i’m worried to even debate about marrriage
because i don’t want anyone to think that
i want to get married.
i don’t honestly even know what to think of marriage
i try to have a specific opinion about it
but it seems ideal to use marriage
as an escape route to escape
both the state and state conservatorship
since i can’t make argument against gay marriage
i can’t really go against anyother kind
but than i think about the state and am divided
in between myself. since i can’t take care
of myself its much beter for me
to focus on art
instead of something unlikely
marriage deterministically
connects families from different cultures
which contributes to divercity
and effects enterprise. or results in cultural
evolutions and fusion foods.
i’m not sure if its particularly
relevant. much less justification to
mary anyone. i’m glad to have escaped marreiage
so long
becuase relaxing. some countries
still have bride kidnappings which i think
is like patriarchy, like in Kazastan, i saw
a video of a bride being kidnaped in plain site
and it was aweful. i don’t get why they don’t make
marriage software. to prevent divorcerates
but i don’t think it would sell or be viewd
as a good idea (in the long ruN)
even if the marriage is gay
i don’t honestly think it stands a chance or should
even remotely be legal unless the parents arriange
the marriage
becuase the old people.
i’m afraid of marriage,
somereligions
were against parents
arranging marriage. and emphasised the personal
choice of those getting married becuase
choice wasn’t a part of alot of marriage throughout
histroy until recently, or even now..
in 2017 i sat down on a train
passing through chicago’ next to a pschology
student who was studying in chicago and
was from sweden but born in Iraq.
(from sweden he had american like accent
and in sweden it was considered
a talent to speak swedish but also american
english without swedish accent influences
the english, he was more american sounding than
me since people from missouri can’t talkright.
due to the french disabling our society from the
inside out before it begain.)
it was 2017 and his parents arranged marriage
of him to some female who was also from middle
east, and i think they were oil millionaires
to me sanity for the most part
is performative.
they say schizophrenia is chronic illness is
why i’m disabled.
i dont have negative view of (my own potiantial) marriage
but there are serious issues with me or
with marriage as industry since the
60s has grown in revenue while divorce rates up
economic issues and the resulting antisocial
behavoir is a threat to love. but i feel like
people should get not married from a choice not
becuase of an economic relevance. that for people
older than us would of been an economic convienance.
i can’t fanthom why exacty abortion is relly illegal.
chris hedeges points out that birthrates are as low
as they were in the Great despresion
so it is grim for people my age.
making abortion illegal isn’t necesiarly going to
cause more babies to be born.
nor help the dating scene. and then there
is the general exortion of the working class
that disenigrates freedom. as a sacrifice to raise a family.
i’m content or prepared to be alone for various
reasons.
i like being alone
becuase my exietence is justified
if its in danger than thats even more
justification to the justificaiton fire.
there might be objective reasons why its a good
idea to avoid danger. but even though its not ojbectively
moral to join the military
it is constantly purported that we must as society
offer blind or personal support to the military
or to support them, joining the military even though
its bad.
but since joining the military is merely dangerous that
is justification or blances out the karma.
just becuase someone has done more damage to the world
than me doesn’t mean i have a right to say
anyhting about it since it was for me arbitrary
to what i signed up for.
the bourgeois marriage is based on money to the point
it is something i’ve always despised,
if you are younger than there is usually no reason to get married
if my minds free than it is easy to be happy
alone becuase infinite amount of happiness
from puting philsophy into art.
getting pussywhiped
is the american dream
but its more difficult than it sounds.
i don’t think being pussywhiped is a bad
thing or i might use that term to make fun of my
friends who are married and with kids and don’t have
time for me anymore… its not that i’m jealous
i think getting pussywhiped is a good thing i just don’t
letting force you to destroy the community.
i was born in alaska so i don’t even want to be
apart of the lower 48, i would rather alaska betaken
over by the russians and live there.
to go against the americans.
or canadians. i feel happy in the mountains.
and need those more so than soceity.
i have been able to play music acoustically so
i don’t even need
daw except by critial injury.
i probably don’t want to mary someone unless they
either have psychic powers. or i don’t know how many wives you are really
supposed to have. since i’m a guy i would never
beable to have choice in marriage, unless its to make
life more difficult for everyone. it is difficult
to sleep at night if you are married to wrong person
i don’t have ability to view marriage negatively
becuase i wasn’t raised christian but that is
a horrible thing to say.
Valerie Solanas
stated that hippie men have more
than one wife becuase they are sexist.
i dont’ know if most people realise this
people think mormons are weird but hippies
can be worse than mormons and muslims combined.
despite the sexism. they have a drugculture
and cause trouble in the neighborhood.
my existence is justificed alone
if i’m persecuted or abused
than that means i’m innocent so my
existence is justified so that
is better than being
“issue with conservatorships in the US is that in response to the state determining that an individual is so vulnerable that they can not”
i’m not individual or its only the individualists idea that
its okay to not have an individual barreir.
the reason i say that is that if you are not diagnosed
with paranoid schizophrenia than you have the
possibility to be much more so individual even though
on our birthcertfiicates in both canada and america
we are basically… owned by a bank.
where as in other nations you have actual rights based
on something relevant. instead of just making it up.
its only from the result of an individual that they
can deny consent or guardians denying consent to be
forced meds as guardians that i’m free
if i were owned by the state
or on my own without a true owner.
than there is no protection from me
my life is already negatively effected by the meds
and i was hurt by meds when i was tricked
into giving them a chance when was 11 without
knowing the science. i’m tramatized by the meds
or negatively effected by it not just me but
others in my family
or friends. and people around the world.
sainity is performative
what prevents me from proving that i can
take care of myself is superficial
things like the jobs i could of gotten if iwere
abelbodied or if anyone in my community gave a shit
or if the weed industry was less elitist they would hire
me for a trem job instead random people.
america is a place were you really Have to have a car
and i’m not going to accept that under any circumstance
i’m already old to a certain point.
my own society puts me under the rug
from being backwards.
this doesn’t effect everyone so they adapt or are
oblivious or conform.
but i think its much more so important to be
selfish than to make my own place
better becuase i don’t have my own place i wasn’t born
here
and despise it.
unless its the nature.
i only need nature, i don’t need society since
there is the internet to replace that.
i don’t see my self as change
because i have a magic book that
has radiation that
results in immortaility.
in chinese astrology i’m metal
spirit so i don’t even ever like
any kind of chnage.
if i have already changed, in the past
or in my life
than that is enough change.
in reality we can get closer
to the end
but by no means is there
any variation
unless you don’t eat lamb
or imbune yourself with lifepreservting
radiation from esoteric occult books
about spirtuality and lost civilizations
and time travel, and levitation.
it is good to read
but what people actually believe in
the worship of gold
is interseting to me.
but i don’t see myself as going
anywhere for change
i’m trying to play piano
and no one knows what that means
or what it feels like.
but agains i have to apologize
please forgive me for pointing this out
but britney spears has a muscluar chad like
bf
he could of just marriaged her and in reality
if brinety was from were i am from than her
dad would of pointed shot gun at the bf
and forced them to get married
or i am suprised it did not come down to that.
its because britney did not have any friends
or no one was there for her that she even
had any issues.
the emphasise on britney being free.
at the cost of national security.
it might not effect someone who is
in cananda
britney’s world.
it is merely an aspect of american culture’s
emphasise on individualism at the cost of the nature
of soceity much less it’s saftey.
there is a french locke connection. and now a
britney locke connection.
just like locke was a product of imperialism.
britney is a represenitive. of something.
widespread.
liberalism potintially has something to do with liberty
which is similar to freedom. and the freebritney
movement consisted of only liberals supported her.
unless they were classic rock fan
if locke is the father of liberalism.
than britney is the mother. and since she
is now the one to blame (leglaly) for her actions
i am going to continue to hold her accountable
for the captialist pespi camaigns for the rest of her life
i know its not the best use of my time.
britney looks similar and did not
fight for anything except for pespsi
britney spears got freed because communists
started to slack on going against individualism
and emphasied it while ignoreing the potintial reprocussions
we havea medical system and she can be brought to justice
there.
but iwould not have asay in it
i don’t want to be free.
i’m tramatized by the state, and don’t view rent as
freedom. or driving cars as self efficiency
cats are territorial and to me that is the same
as moving out of my parents. when i am relient on
them for food.
and the loudness of it all.
the only escape is
sounds.
locke was not father of liberalism
he was lubricant for imperialist exspansion.
and excuse for catastrophy
he was used as axiom by people who had as little
substance as he did.
i do not give locke thebenefit of the doubt
there are a list of writers that i wrote off as a
teenager because they were white
both locke and hegel are in that category
the only difference is that hegel has
good syntax while sayin nothing
true.
where as locke is stuck in the 1600s.
or something.
one of my problems is that i’m burntout
and my mind is full of shit
when i went to scotland there was this man who
was an alcoholic and kept telling me that
i was mentally ill and my mind was full of shit.
i’m tormented by my thoughts
and debates are suposed to be healthy but
i have cognitive problems with reality.
i don’t mean to flood debate wiht too many words
Harmonic Experience: Tonal Harmony from Its Natural Origins to Its Modern Expression is the only thing i got out of adam
neely and his cronies.
adam neely has been state funded to spread american culture
like a disease to untouched parts of the globe
to use bruno mars as a catalist to
convert people in to americanism
in the past it was about jazz and culture
now its about neely and bruno mars.
the real book is nice
what i hate the most about neely is that he uses a kapo
but has a degree in music.
and comes up with justifications for it
and i’m like come on.
and then he is bad because i caught him on his instagram
live and they were joking about microdosing (everyone) for
their upcoming concert. and i’m like jeasus man you
have got to stop abusing drugs and hold it together
tv personality or not
i can’t stand any tv personality
unless its peewee herman or dragaon ball z
another reason the existance, of adam neely is
so disheartening to me is that he doesn’t know shit about
jazz.
if i knew it was that easy to goto jazz school…
my life would of been differnt
i spent so much time practicing thinking i was not
good enough. how man vidoes does neely have on
vintage french jazz? he is detached from the core essence
of jazz is why his music sounds like that.
i will go easy on him for the lofi thing but iam
not suprised.
i asked him to help me and he did not.
i am sure that neely is a captialist and has a
capitalistic personality not a tv personality
there is a difference.
i think over the years there will be whistle blowers and the
read adam neely will be exposed.
or i’m jealous of people who have a better life than me
even if it is britney spears.
adam neely thinks hindu music is a system
his mom is a system…
i’m glad i’ve never been to newyork because if people
like neely are squandering there.
i would put in as much energy or effort to avoid newyork
city
people think they need society but are already avoiding
intense aspects of society.
i’m tormented by society
tortured by the state
and the state is in conflict with my own convictions
i would renouce my u.s. citizenship just to prove a point.
against war.
this man became stateless in paraguay
so it is possible
most states would not let it happen.
but you can still do it.
adam neely might mean well and for the most part
is aware of his faults but i don’t think hes aware of
Jazz music.
or it’s histroy. for me in my situation i need an individual
to be barrier between me and my psychologist
and the state to deny consent to prevent being forced medication
because for me it is a night mare.
i traveled to ends of earth, to a place without chain restaurants
and every basic necisity.
even in the shetlands there are people like me who have
suffered similar situations with cruel psychological industry
that carries on fruedian brutality.
i get idea of value of independence
but to me
sanity is performative
its only a lucky few who are able to not come off as
schizophrenic to the psychologists and they take away
rights to my own body.
but in my state no woman has right to her own body with
draconian abortionlaws
we had protests before the virus
and it is even worse in alabama
there should be more direct action protests
or atleast something or anything.
my issues with being foreced meds is that the only
other people who are anti medication as much as me
are like the conspricy thearists because their
fan base has behavoir issues and the psychologists
and their familesi think their a threat so they
give them meds
but for me
i’m not perfect but they have got it all wrong.
the psychologist wont hesitant to use to state
to force me meds
and i lack ability to physically escape like in past
i’m a cynic so i don’t even care if i’m objectively a slave.
being a slave is a 300% upgrade from being… an america.
i don’t believe in money,
i’ve seen what its lead to.
thats why i’m an artist so that way i can never have
money even if people gave it to me.
my idea was to run away from america
not my problems
i that its only from a misconception of the chrisitna
missionaries that there are or were anyproblems
with hunter gathering societies.
or dynamic agricultural systems.i have only been mixing for
over 12 years.i have concept of gainstaging,
steroimaging, i have every fabfilter
except for the desser
becuase i don’t mix vocals that much
i have analog spring reverb and
various preamps, i have hyperacusis
which makes it difficult
but prince and mozart had hyperacusis
and still made music
i usually mix and master but
it can still be mastered after
i usually put over sampling on
each track
use alternate soundsource for midi
so that way you have a mix with only
audio clips because midi will
slow things down crash computer or
cause artifacts and makes mixingmore
difficult you can still change the sound once
it’s an audio clip
or i would freeze the midi and flatten it
and put oversampling on each individual track
its not that there are no rules
its that most people don’t know what they are
doing
otherwise there would not be the loudness wars
you are not even supposed to have a loud mix.